Ceasing To Float

The thought crept in & came

Of how I play the game

X rated & profane

Verbal abuse and shame

All ticking on the clock

As I beat the time

Redefining the best

The least understood

By members of the brotherhood

All in good standing

Bloody handshakes surround me

The white cloth

Soaked blood red

The victim at the stake

Naked & dead

Shedding her skin

For his pig mask

The task of skinning

While grinning

Laughing up a storm

With scorn

Sworn by oath

Taking notes

Of how not to float



Life Lessons

The High Priestess teaches me

And has for years

She lets me know

I’ll be alright

Always telling me to put up a fight

Spirituality is what I seek

Even if I am looked at like a freak

Knowledge of our ancestors

Passed on through centuries

I strive for harmony

Which, for me

Comes through sobriety

And being alright with me

Accepting life positively

Looking for lessons

In everything

I know I am capable

The start is sobriety 

The fight between my heart and head

Because my head wants me dead

The elders led me out of the dark

And the disease is like a hungry shark

Waiting patiently

Stocking me

Watching me to see if I’ll slip



The Words Got Worse

Time spent writing 

Is a form of fighting

Electric lightning

Flames rising

From the abyss

Judas’ kiss

The lips of venom

From the girl

In the light blue denim

If I only had a clue

Of what I was getting into

I would’ve thought

I’d never make it through

Getting in a relationship with you

I knew you were trouble

Thought we’d make a perfect couple

But the pain doubled

Every mistake I made

Making it worse with words

Going insane

Being your slave

All my heart, I gave

Ridiculed & shamed

I started digging my own grave

Hating hearing my name


Friends Of Mine

This I know

My friends are true

They love me for me

And help when I’m blue

We talk much

Such a beautiful thing

Speaking thoughtfully

You’ve got my back

And I yours

Opening new doors

Of life unseen

Thee ultimate team

Taking life on seriously

With all the calm and all the strife

We’ve got each other

How we like

Together in care

I swear I’m there

Even if it’s not fair

I’ll grab a chair

Sit and listen

Watch the tears glisten

Down your beautiful face

We put each other in place

Never holding back

Hearts strong

For the next attack

Crack a joke

Smile with me

Let’s enjoy being us

And being free 


According To Plan

Thanks for having me here

First I’d like to make clear

Some of my fear
Being stuck

In the same cycle

For miles
Missing moments

With family

Because of an altered reality
Failing myself

Sleeping my worries away

And no play
I get in my head

To much that I shed

Thoughts of being dead
I want to be remembered

As a beautiful man

Whose life didn’t go according to plan

My Daughter

The story goes like this

Meeting a miss

Gave her a kiss

She’s fine

Do you think she’d be my valentine

Could we combine

And make 3

A little baby


Feeling of worth

Cutest thing ever on earth

She’s my little girl

Dirty blond with curls

Blue eyes

That look like the sky

Now I know why

I’m here for her

We’re family

And meant to be